I Left out the Ninja.

I talk too much. I was a little too loose with my thoughts today. When that happens a) I get made a fool out of or b) I upset people. And myself.

Of course I'm intensely private. It's my culture, it's the way I've been raised, and it's what makes me feel comfortable. I'm suprised daily by the emotional openness of many people even at school. I couldn't leave myself vulnerable to that degree.

Sometimes I do, though. I'm less guarded, and sometimes the consequence is that I get hurt and draw closer in to myself...ugh, that makes me sound like an emotionally withdrawn turtle. Teenage mutant turtles, indeed. And sometimes there isn't a consequence. But there usually is. And it's common sense--you don't leave yourself unguarded. With anything. Emotions, wealth, war, you name it.

This is more serious than I intended, but it's nice to get my thoughts out.

P.S. I hope I am, in actuality, neither a sewer mouth or a jerk. At least not most of the time.